You are right @CavaliereVerde - the stagnation is in-line with backtesting, yet, for some reason I find myself struggling (psychologically) more in believing in the backtesting once real investor money is attached. For some reason, I seem to trade better when it's my own money that is on the line.
I have also been committed to keeping risk reasonable when investor money is at stake (and I believe I have stuck to that), but it doesn't remove my sense of feeling responsible when going through deep drawdowns.
I realise it's not a first for me .. but maybe for some trading their own account it is just a better option than trying to manage the additional "responsibility" ... I find it difficult to adopt a don't care attitude, even though I appreciate it's important to be a little bit robotic about it.
I don't plan to close the DARWIN just yet, but at the same time don't feel it's right to continue trading either considering some of the internal battles that I am trying to overcome. I set the investment limit to $300,000k as I don't believe I can set it to $50k increments to stop further investments.
So nothing more than just a struggling trader at the moment - appreciate this is not the first time